Episode Thirty Four : Back to Square One

Daddy ya tashi ya shige daki. Yana shiga Hafsat ta mike ta fada cinyar mommy ita kuma ta rungume ta suna dariya, nima dariyar nake yi amma ta yaqe ce, maganar daddy ce take yi min yawo aka, tabbas nasan munir bashi da niyyar hakura, kuma nasan in har na gama school bani da wani sauran excuse, ballantana yanzu idan iyayen Zayed suka je neman auren Hafsat kowa kuma hankalinsa dawo wa kaina zaiyi. Ina cikin wannan lissafin naji maganar mommy wacce ta sake daga min hankali "ai naji yace ma indai har su baffan sun amince acikin hutun nan naku yake so ayi komai a gama, in yaso kya karasa project dinki a gidan sa, kinga nan da baifi wata biyar ko shida ba za'a gama komai" Hafsat ta boye fuskar ta a cinyar mommy wai ita kunya, su yaya Habeeb suna ta tsokanarta da amarya, ni kuwa, shock din maganar ne ya daskarar dani a inda nake zaune, mommy ta kara da cewa "ni dai kam ni aka tasa a tsaye, lokacin yayi min kadan gaskiya, saboda ni plan dina shine nan da kamar shekara biyu masu zuwa, so nayi yadda kuka taso tare ke da moon in hada ku rana daya in aurar daku shikenan" I have heard enough, na mike zuciya ta tayi min nauyi na kama hanyar fita, ina jiyo su suna ta making plans, mommy ta kira daada tana gaya mata. Ina fita part dinmu na shiga, sai kuma na rasa me zan dauka, sai kawai na dauki hijab dina na saka na kama hanyar gate. Ni kaina bansan inda zani ba, I just want to get away for a while. Baifi saura wata biyu ya rage mana muyi hutu ba, muna yin hutu zamu tafi Nigeria. Allah ne kadai yasan irin abinda zan fuskanta a can. Dan jiki na yana bani baffa zai iya cewa a hada aure na dana Hafsat, da zarar nace bani da saurayi kuwa za'a ce ai ga munnir nan yana ta zaman jira. Allah ya gani bazan iya auran munnir ba. I despise him. To ko Mahdi zan lallaba ne? But I don't love him and I will end up hurting him. Ya Ilahi. Ina fita gate na hango motar Zayed a gurin da yake tsayawa in yazo gurin Hafsat. Na juya na fara tafiya in opposite direction, ina jinsa yana horn kuma nasan dani yake amma naki juyowa. Ban ankara ba sai ganin mota nayi a gaba na, yayi winding glass din motar ya kalle ni da murmushi a fuskar sa "beautiful one ina zaki je ne haka ke kadai kuma a kafa?" Nayi niyyar inyi banza in rabu dashi tunda duk shi ya ja min daya dauko maganar auren Hafsat amma kuma sai na kasa, it is not in my nature wulakanta mutane. Na karasa kusa da motar sa nace "nan baya zan je ba nisa" daga yadda yake kallona nasan bai yarda da maganata ba, ya bude kofar motar yace "shigo in kai ki" na danyi jim sai kuma na shiga. Ina zama yace "What is wrong" kawai sai jin hawaye nayi yana zubo min, nayi sauri na rufe fuskata da hannuna na fara kuka. Ya gyara packing din motar ya zauna, bai ce min komai ba, bai kuma rarrasheni ba, sai da nayi kuka na me isa ta sannan na dube fuskata ina goge idona da hannuna, ya miko min box din tissues, sannan ya sake tambayata "what's wrong?" Nan take na fara bashi labarin tun farkon haduwar mu da Ibrahim, aikin da na saka daddy ya samo masa, graduation din mu, yadda ta kasance ranar da yazo gidan mu da tafiyarsa, dawowarmu England da labarin aurensa,na kara da cewa "har yau babu shi babu labarinsa, he might be dead for all I know. Amma na kasa chire shi daga raina, na rage tunaninsa amma na kasa mantawa dashi, I can't fall in love again" sannan sai na bashi labarin Munnir, na kuma bashi labarin Mahdi. Na kara da cewa "yanzu muna zuwa Nigeria aka fara maganar ku da Hafsat, shikenan hankalin kowa zai dawo kaina, ko dai in fito da miji, which I don't have, ko kuma a aura min Munnir, who I don't love". Nayi shiru idona a lumshe ina sauraren yadda zuciyata take bugawa. Zayed yayi gyaran murya yace "do u want the truth?" Ba tare da na kalle shi ba na gyada kaina. A hankali yace "He is not coming back" na juyo da sauri na kalleshi ya gyada min kai tare da maimaitawa "he is not coming back" na dauke kaina na daina kallonsa, yacigaba da cewa "he left because he weak and unsure of himself, yes, sanda ya tafi maybe yana da niyyar dawowa sanda yaji he is strong enough, auren sa ya kara rage chances dinsa of coming back to you saboda matarsa zata yi iya kokarinta wajan janye hankalinsa daga kanki, da zarar ta haihu kuma shikenan hankalinsa zai kara karkata kan 'ya'yansa. After almost five years kuwa his chance of coming back to you is zero percent. Dole ki saka a zuciyarki kuma ki yadda da fact that he is not coming back. Abu na farko kenan. Abu na biyu shine, dole kiyi opening heart dinki for another man. Love at first sight is very rear dan haka idan guy yace yana sonki kamata yayi ki bashi chance, get to know him sannan zaki san cewa you can love him or not. You are very young and very beautiful Moon, your life is just starting, kar ki bar wani can da maybe ya manta dake yayi ruining happiness dinki. Open your heart to both Munnir and Mahadi and whoever else comes your way. Kina jina Moon?" Na gyada kaina yayinda wasu siraran hawaye suka biyo kuncina. Ya cigaba "daga duk kan stories dinki da nake ji a gun Hafsat, na fahimci cewa you have a good heart, mutane like you, I mean people with good heart sun fi kowa facing challenges a rayuwa akan harkar aure, kasuwanci da sauran al'amuran rayuwa saboda Allah yana testing din su yaga how good they are saboda He is saving something good for them"

Idan kana ta samun matsala a rayuwa, kuma ka tabbatar baka da hakkin kowa akan ka, ka tabbatar kana bin iyayenka kuma kana da zuciya mai kyau wacce babu hassada babu ganin kyashi babu kwadayi ko zalunci a ciki, to ka tabbatar cewa jarabawa ce daga Allah kuma in har kaci jarabawarka to sakamakon ka zai zamo something very good aduniya da kuma lahira. Allah ya bamu dacewa, Ameen.

Tunda muka yi magana da Zayed sai naji tamkar an sauke min wani nauyi daga kaina, maybe dama I needed someone to talk to. Naji na samu confidence na facing ko menene yake tahowa gareni ko da kuwa auren munnir ne. Kafin mu rabu ranar sai da ya saka nayi masa alkawarin duk halin da nake ciki zan ke zuwa ina gaya masa. Ina zuwa asibiti na samu Mahdi bace masa ni fa bana jin dadin yadda muke yi yanzu, ina so mu koma kamar da, ya nuna min cewa komai ya wuce, nan muka cigaba da al'amuran mu kamar da. A gida kuwa mommy sai shirye shirye take yi, daddy kuma yayi waya Nigerian embassy da ke UAE ya basu information din Zayed ya saka suyi masa bincike akan sa da family dinsa. Hafsat da Zayed kuwa sun dage sai diga soyayya suke kamar zasu chinye juna, inna gan su sai inyi ta sha'awarsu, both gentle, kuma Hafsat duk rashin kunyar ta in suna tare sai inga tayi laushi, dan ko harara ta zata yi sai taga baya kallonta tukun.

Mun kallama clinicals din mu an sallamemu daga asibiti muka koma school, inda acan ne aka bamu project topics wanda kowa ake so ya kammala acikin shekara daya. A bangaren psychology da nake yi ne coordinator din mu ta bani wani strange topic. Abinda tace shine "kowanne mutum yana da sides guda biyu, da akwai side din da yake in the light da akwai kuma side din da yake inda dark. Shi light side din shine wanda mutum yake nunawa kowa yana gani, ma'ana, dabi'unsa da kowa ya san sa dasu. Shi kuma dark side din shine wanda mutun yake boyewa, ma'ana, dabi'unsa wadanda ba kowa ne ya sansa dasu ba. Wannan side din shi ta kira da shadow, kowa yana dashi amma ba'a ganin sa sai mutun ya fito cikin haske. Naturally da akwai mutanen da suke iya boye dark side dinsu yadda babu wanda yake gani, even if you are a psychologist you have to look very deep kafin ka gani. Compused? Kar ku damu kawai dai an bani project a psychology. Task dina shine in samo irin wadannan mutanen in binciko shadow side dinsu, ba tare da sunsan ina bincike akan su ba. Hint din da ta bani shine, most of them are attention seekers, saboda suna son su nunawa mutane light side dinsu yadda ba za a ga shadow side din su ba. Don't worry, zaku gane later.

Da haka muka tattara ina mu ina mu sai Naija. Muna zuwa Nigeria kamar yadda aka tsara haka ce ta kasance, an bawa su Zayed rana kuma sunzo, a Abuja suka sauka daga nan daddy zai saka a raka su 'yalleman. Babu yadda daddy bai yi dasu ba akan su sauka a gidan mu amma suka ki, suka sauka a hotel. Shi kuwa Zayed dama direct nan ya taho, ko kunya baya ji, ya sauka a dakin ya Walid, nan Hafsat aka hau hidimar yi masa girki kala-kala. Kwanan su daya a Abuja suka tafi 'yalleman da ya Walid da wadansu abokan daddy su biyu. Ranar da suka tafi Hafsat kwana akayi ana sallah. Washegari Amira tazo muka hadu muka saka Hafsat a gaba da tsokana. Nayi mamaki da naji Amira ko mentioning Ibrahim bata yi ba. Zuwa wajen la'asar Zayed ya kirani a waya yace "congratulations, I am going to be your brother inlaw in the next two months" nan na yar da wayar ina ihu, Amira da Amina suka biye min Hafsat kuwa ta shige toilet ta rufe kanta