Episode Forty One : Born for This.

Jin bance komai ba yasa Sultan yayi ajjiyar zuciya yace "am sorry, maybe it sounded like an insult to you. Allah ya baki hakuri. Kawai dai na fada ne saboda ni bana iya rike abu a raina. I don't deserve you, I know. Kawai dai na dauka for once maybe zan zama lucky" na kalleshi ina girgiza kaina nace "am not saying no Sultan, am just not saying yes. Duk wannan abin yayi sauri da yawa, babu dade da haduwa ba. I don't know you and you don't know me" ya cire glasses din idonsa ya dora akan dash board yace "look ba fa cewa nayi zan turo iyayena ba ko something like that ba, am just asking for your permission to love you" nace "na sani, amma still, indai har soyayya ce dole a kafa ta akan yarda da juna da aminci. Kafin in ce ina sonka ko bana sonka dole sai na sanka first. Sultan I don't even know your real name, babu abinda na sani a tare da kai" guri ya samu a gefen titi yayi packing ya juyo yana kallona sosai, yace "saboda rannan kin tambayeni about my mother shi yasa kike cewa haka ko?" Nace "well, yes, na gaya maka almost everything a kaina amma kai ka kasa gaya min komai, ta yaya kake so in fara relationship da kai ba tare da nasan komai a kanka ba?" Yace "I didn't tell you anything about my mother because I don't know" ya buga hannunsa akan steering alamar ransa ya fara baci. Nayi shiru bance komai ba ina gudun kara bata masa rai. Mun jima a zaune sai ya fara magana "Sunana na gaskiya Abbakar Sadiq Abdallah, for some unknown reason babana ya saka min sunansa, a game da mahaifiyata kuma bansan komai akanta ba, it is as if she didn't exist,babu wanda yake maganar ta, abinda na sani kadai shine sunanta, shima kuma a jikin birth certificate dina na gani. Tun tasowa ta a gidan kakana na taso, kakana wanda ya haifi mahaifina lokacin shine sarki ba Takawa ba. Duk duniya zan iya cewa daga shi sai Amir zan iya nunawa ince wadannan suna sona dan soyayyar da ya nuna min sanda yana da rai ko 'ya'yansa baya nuna wa haka. Tun ina yaro nasan Takawa shine babana amma kuma tun a lokacin nasan baya sona, dan ina tuna lokacin da in yazo gidan zan kama rigarsa in rike ina kuka shi kuma yana ture ni har sai na fadi sannan yayi tafiyarsa. Kakana lokacin shi zai daukeni yayi ta rarrashina. Gata kam a lokacin na gani, duk abinda nake so shi za'a yi min, babu wanda ya isa yayi min tsawa ko fada koda kuwa Yaya ce (yaya itace kakata wacce ta haifi babana), dan haka na taso a sangarce, babu mai sani babu mai hana ni, wani lokacin sai in zauna inyi ta kuka ince ni gurin mommy na da daddy na zanje ko wanne yaro yana gurin iyayensa banda ni, a irin wadannan lokutan ne marigayi sarki ya dauke ni ya kaini orphanage ya nuna min yaran gurin yace 'kaga wadannan yaran su basu san uwarsu ba basu san ubansu ba, basu san kowa a dangin su ba, kai kuma kasan babanka, kasanni ni kakanka, kasan dukkan danginka na gurin babanka to kamata yayi ka godewa Allah', a orphanage din na hadu da Amir" na kalleshi da sauri ya gyada min kai "yes, Amir is an orphan. Babarsa tana haihuwarsa ta dauke shi daga shi har mahaifarsa ko cibiya bata yanke masa ba ta ajiye shi a kofar orphanage ta gudu. Kakana shi ya rada masa sunansa Abdallah shine ake ce masa Amir. Sanda yake kaini orphanage ya hada ni da shi, tun a lokacin muke abota da yake shima fitinanne ne iri na, daga baya in zamu taho sai yayi ta kuka yace sai ya bi mu, sai kawai kakana yayi adopting dinsa ya saka mu a makaranta tare, komai tare muke yi dashi har yau. Lokacin da kakana ya rasu ne rayuwata ta chanza gaba daya, I was ten years old then, nayi ta kuka akayi ta rarrashi na naki hakura, Takawa yana zuwa ya kama ni ya daure min hannu da baki na ya saka ni a dakina ya rufe kofar. Haka na kwana ina kukan zuci babu bakin yin kukan ga uban dauri da nasha, sai washe sannan ya aiko aka kunce ni kuma yace in na sake kuka sai ya kuma daureni. Daga ranar nasan na rasa soyayya a rayuwata. Hankali na bai kuma tashi ba sai da aka nada babana sarki, ya dauko iyalansa wadanda ko saninsu banyi ba tunda baya bari inje gidansa ya dawo palace. Ni na riga na saba duk abinda nake so shi zanyi, tun da ya dawo gidan kuwa sai ya zamana duk abinda nayi no matter how small ba zai yi min fada ko nasihaba sai dai ya saka dogaran sa suyi ta dukana, wani lokacin har Amir za'a hada a daka koda kuwa ni kadai nayi laifin. Daga lokacin muka fara koyon fada ni da Amir, in an saka a dake mu sai ya zamana suna dukan mu muna ramawa. Bayan na karasa primary school, Rannan na tambayi Yaya nace dan Allah ta saka a kaini gurin babata sai tace min itama bata san inda take ba, na tambayeta ko ta san dalilin da yasa iyayena duka rabu? Sai tace min saboda ayi protecting family name. Lokacin ina yarinta ban fahimci maganar ta sosai ba. Lokacin Takawa ya sai wata sabuwar mota kawai sai na dauki fenti na shiga garage dinsa na rubuta 'fuck the family name, I want my mother', nasan abinda na aikata dan haka naje na shirya, na saka duwatsun wuta a cikin safa ta na hada da hannuna wanda na daure da karamin towel na daure, neman kawai wanda zan huce temper ta akansa nake yi, ai kuwa sai dashi an turo wani dogari mai tsautsayi akan ya zo ya dake ni, da na dage na fara naushinsa da hannuna mai duwatsun nan har sai da naga baya motsi, haka aka kwashe shi sai asibiti. Washe gari takawa ya kirawo ni yace "tunda ni ka gagare ni zan tura ka inda za'a koya maka hankali" shikenan abinda yace min, babu Sultan me yasa kayi haka? Babu Sultan ya kamata ka dena haka. Kawai ya saka mu a jirgi ni da Amir sai lagos, gidan kangararru. Wasu iyayen suna ganin gidan kangararru a matsayin gidan da zai gyara musu 'ya'yansu basu san cewa kara kangarar da yara yake yi ba. Sanda ya kaimu na tambayeshi 'why?' Amsar da ya bani shine 'to protect the family name'. Babu abinda ban koya a gidan nan ba, babu abinda ban iya ba, acan na hadu da most of the gang bangs, iyayensu sun kasa basu tarbiyya sun turo su nan. Shekarar mu biyu acan uncle dina galadima yaje a fito damu, yana kawomu gida Takawa kallo daya yayi mana yace ba'a gidan sa ba, a lokacin ne Hajiya ta kira ni dakinta ta ce min zata saka a kaini America a saka ni a makaranta amma sai na mata alkawarin bazan dawo Nigeria ba zanyi zama na acan. Ni a lokacin gani nake yi me zai dawo dani Nigeria tunda babu wani abu da na bari anan, nobody wants me, not even my mother. Sai a lokacin naga birth certificate dina da sunanta a jiki 'Khairat Abdallah' da signature dinta, sai a lokacin nasan cewa a america aka haife ni, dan haka ina zuwa America asibitin da aka haife ni na fara zuwa ina bincike ko zan samu wani information akanta amma ban samu komai ba. Takawa ya saya min gida ya saya min mota ya cika min account dina da kudi. Babu wanda yayi tsammanin zamuyi karatu da gaske ni kuwa na dage da karatu kawai saboda ina sa ran maybe in nayi karatu he will love me, na gama sec sch na shiga jami'a amma ko sau daya bai je ya ganni ba, sai dai duk kudin da nake so zai aika min. San da na gama first degree dina na shigo jirgi na zo Nigeria na kawo masa certificate dina ya karba ya duba, abinda yace min shine "good for you" daga nan ya jefo min takardata, alokacin ne na fahimci cewa ba wai halina ne baya so ba ni din ne baya so, Hajiya tace min ina alkawarinta nacewa bazan dawo Nigeria ba? Dan haka na tattara na koma America na koma makaranta. A lokacin nayi hankali sosai kuma na fahimci cewa duk abinda ya faru a rayuwata ya faru ne saboda babana yana so yayi protecting his family name, ni kuma na sha alwashin sai na bata family name din nasa da yake ji dash, duk tsiya dai shi ya haife ni kuma duk abinda nayi dole sunan nasa da yake ji dashi za'a ambata. Ina zuwa Nigeria hajiya ta fara tambayar alkawarin mu and I told her to fuck off, nasan abinda take so, bata so na a kusa da sarauta saboda tana son abbas yayi sarauta ita kuma bata san sarauta is the last thing on my mind ba, dan haka na fara bribing dinta cewa in dai har tana bani goyon baya ina yin duk abinda nake so to I will leave Abbas alone yayi ta sarautarsa.

Aikina na architecture yana kawo min kudi sosai, dan haka a yanzu bana bukatar kudin Takawa dan duk abubuwan da nake yi da kudina nakeyi, yanzu ba zai sa a dakeni ba kuma babu yadda zaiyi dani dan haka sai ya koma ignoring dina, nuna wa yake yi kamar bai san dani a duniyar ba amma nasan cewa sakonni na suna isa gurinsa sosai" ya juyo ya kalleni fuskarsa dauke da wani murmushin dana kasa gane kansa yace "to Maimunatu, I opened up to you, babu wanda na taba zama mukayi irin wannan maganar dashi bayan Amir sai ke. This is me. Yanzu zaki iya yin making decisions dinki yes or no" yana gama fadar haka ya mayar da glasses dinsa ya tayar da motar. Har muka je gida babu wanda ya sake cewa komai. Ni a gurina kaina ne ya kulle, I need to digest duk maganganun Sultan kafin inyi fully understanding din labarinsa. Yana packing nayi masa godiya, kai kawai ya daga min na fita. Sai bayan na gama da kowa nayi sallah nayi wanka na kwanta sannan na fara rewinding duk maganganun sultan ina reviewing dinsu. Duk abinda yake yi yana yi ne dan ya bata sunan family dinsa saboda yana ganin basa sonsa kuma sune sanadiyyar gurbacewar rayuwarsa. Yanzu na fahimci dalilin soyayyarsa da yara da taimaka musu ta hanyar gina orphanage da saka su a makaranta, saboda yasan ciwon rashin samun kulawa daga iyaye, yasan maraici duk da shi ba maraya bane. And suddenly I know what sultan wants, what he needs, LOVE.

Na dauki waya ta na duba time na lissafa naga rana ce yanzu a England, nayi dialing number din supervisor na, yana dagawa nace "sir I think I found the subject for my research project"

*what do you guys think is more important, Family or Family name?